What memories are getting in the way? How can I misremember them?
I list 3 memories that are getting in my way. I remember:
- That I haven't been writing recently.
- All the other things I could be doing instead.
- How difficult writing this blog can be.
- I picture myself having written everyday, all week.
- I keep coming back to the same thing; I can blog, or I can blog, or I can blog.
- Blogging is easy!
- Write blog
- Write blog
- Write blog
- Write blog
- Write blog
It becomes a game. When I ask myself, “What do I do now?” the answer is, “To blog!”
I start writing, but eventually want to procrastinate. How do I procrastinate? By writing my blog!
If I forget, I check my To Do list. I make multiple To Do lists, all with the same item repeated. I can have one on my computer; one on my phone; one in a notebook; and one on a scrap of paper. I have fun with the silliness of this seemingly pointless task.
Do I believe this all I have to do today? No, I'm just playing. Will this get me to blog everyday? No, I'm just trying something foolish for short-term gains. It got me to write about half of this entry. Then, a few days later, it got me to write the rest. For me, totally worth it.
Now what do I do?